Lessons from Mom

My mother was a very intelligent, hard working, fun loving and wise woman.
She was not a religious person, she didn’t have a Phd., in Philosophy, or medicine. But I can tell you of a truth she was authentic and the words of wisdom she shared keep me going on many a trying occasion.

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When I was a child, I was afraid of the darkness and to this day I prefer to remain in light.  I can say with conviction that I am no longer afraid to sit in the dark. And now I realize what mom said to me as a child was so very true.

With great conviction, and in that tone that gets your full attention, she would say,
“Virginia!, there is nothing in the darkness that is not there in the light. It is just that you can not see it (until the light shines).”

Truth is authenticity on every level, it is light. Let your light so shine before men . . .

God is One.  Live in love.

BIG LOVE
lil’ gini.

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A choice . . .

Today’s Glimpse of Glory :

Once upon a time, a co-worker, his name is Wayne, accused me of being too happy.
He said to me: How do you stay so happy all the time? and No one can be that happy.

I don’t recall what my answer was then. But today is a new day, the present day, and my gift for today was when  I realized this: Sure no one is happy all the time, but for the most part, I am contented, my needs are met and so I am happy. Nothing wrong with that, nothing wrong with me.  Come to think of it, that is how I stay happy by being grateful for what I do have and not always living in want. Sure not 24/7, but most of the time. I work at it too, I work at it a lot. Happiness doesn’t necessarily come naturally. It’s an attitude that must be maintained.

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Don’t Worry Be Happy !

HAPPY:
http://www.dictionary.com/browse/happy

Synonyms
1. joyous, joyful, blithe, cheerful, merry, contented, blissful, satisfied. 3. favorable, propitious; successful, prosperous. 4. appropriate, fitting, opportune, pertinent.

I was happy, I am happy, and I will be happy.  I Am Happy. I am happier today than I have been since I was a child.

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I am happy and truthfully, I’ve always been happy, I just had amnesia for a while, I forgot to just be who I am, and part of, a big part of who I am is happy.

 I am happy and today add to happiness with valor in the battle to bring down all the circumstances and thoughts that would try to tell me otherwise. I exercise my right to live happy in my strange and wonderful world.

I think that when all we want for ourselves, that is, our children, friends, relatives, our neighbors is to live in peace and be happy then the world is a much better place to be. 

Today, my answer to Wayne:  I act happy because I am happy
(except when I’m not ….lol)!

Be governed by love and wisdom.

My wisdom:  Take some time today to do something fun, and if you can’t find the time, then take it, take something you are already doing and infuse it with happy, enjoy some fun!

BIG LOVE
lil’ gini

Just for fun, some links to definitions of happy:  ps- https://www.merriam-webster.com/thesaurus/happy
pps – http://biblehub.com/greek/3107.htm

Just for fun 🙂

Josh D’Amore’

Stay awake because things are about to change, again.

__________________________

Today . . .

TODAY I call him Josh D’Amore’

He is my everything. In him I am complete, he takes me as I am. I need not change a single quark.   I in him and he in me, it’s a perfect kind of love.

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From the moment we met, I was dumbfounded. I couldn’t speak two intelligent words if my life depended on it. Which, by the way, it probably does. At any rate, I am bewitched, bothered, and bewildered, all the very things those old loves songs talk about, Beguiled, even. I was thrown off course while seeking my own way, trying to make things happen when he showed up. Now I am raptured, lifted to new heights in the glory that surrounds us, and it happened in the blink of an eye.

I mean, I’ve made love before but NEVER like this. His eyes say I am all encompassing pleasure, peace, and joy. In Him I know I can explore until I find the answers to my every secret desire. In him there is no condemnation, I am free, free to ask any question, and free to be anything I desire. I look him in the eye and his gaze utterly destroys me. I could not be more vulnerable and at the same time feel so safe. I trust in him. I have been brought low, low as I can bear go and now, today it seems I am on the rise.

Then, in walked doubt!!

So I ask him, am I your whore? or am I your wife?

He asks (and so do I),  Is there a difference?

Does it matter the masks that we wear? What roles we play?

Which lasts longer, a marriage by the law, or a marriage of grace and mercy?

A marriage of the spirit?

Whichever you choose, that I am and that I remain until you choose to change it.

We need not tell another soul if that is our agreed upon desired.

When they ask all we need say is love provides, keep love alive. Until the time comes when we declare our love together I will remain yours in the secret place saved for we two, alone.

My fellow mankind I beg of you: Until time ends and we are full keep feeding the better angels of our nature. Keep love in mind and raise your brother up, think better of one another.

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Here’s a good riddle:

Who Am I ?

How I love you!

Words fail to explain.

How I adore you!

Where actions speak.

Wear me like regal garb,

and give me a noble life.

I am the only one who is truly yours.

I belong to you, you decide who am I?

I was with you at the beginning

I am with you in the end

I  see through your eyes

I  hear your voice, you have only one voice

I gave it to you.

I will to love you in the evening

I will to love you in the morning, and I will to love you

in the night. Past, present, and future.

I am even now giving you my pledge to be faithful while remaining enraptured by the pleasure of your company.  Yes, it’s true,

For a moment I closed my eyes, for a moment I slept. Just now, just today, I awoke, and I said:  Today is the day I am with you, and for eternity we remain together. Time is no object, there is no object.

Objects:  lie or lay. I say both!

…And now abides, faith, hope, and love, but the greatest of these is love (That’s Bible folks. ).

It is finished, Choices and opinions remain ever expanding.

May we always choose to abide in love (1 Corinthians 13).

What part of you can not be lost?

Who do you say I am?

(my personal answer is one word. If you would like to know that word, just ask. )

BIG LOVE

lil’ gini

_______________

PS –

Don’t worry my next glimpse is a little more … blue? racey? mmm, yeah, blue is good.

look for:  Your love is like __________

and other silly metaphors for love, lust, and fun.

OH and Happy Valentine’s day everyone. If you observe days like that. BIG LOVE

 

 

Josh D’Amore’

Stay awake because things are about to change, again.

__________________________

Today . . .

TODAY I call him Josh D’Amore’

He is my everything. In him I am complete, he takes me as I am. I need not change a single quark.   I in him and he in me, it’s a perfect kind of love.

romantic hotel room ideas for him

From the moment we met, I was dumbfounded. I couldn’t speak two intelligent words if my life depended on it. Which, by the way, it probably does. At any rate, I am bewitched, bothered, and bewildered, all the very things those old loves songs talk about, Beguiled, even. I was thrown off course while seeking my own way, trying to make things happen when he showed up. Now I am raptured, lifted to new heights in the glory that surrounds us, and it happened in the blink of an eye.

I mean, I’ve made love before but NEVER like this. His eyes say I am all encompassing pleasure, peace, and joy. In Him I know I can explore until I find the answers to my every secret desire. In him there is no condemnation, I am free, free to ask any question, and free to be anything I desire. I look him in the eye and his gaze utterly destroys me. I could not be more vulnerable and at the same time feel so safe. I trust in him. I have been brought low, low as I can bear go and now, today it seems I am on the rise.

Then, in walked doubt!!

So I ask him, am I your whore? or am I your wife?

He asks (and so do I),  Is there a difference?

Does it matter the masks that we wear? What roles we play?
Which lasts longer, a marriage by the law, or a marriage of grace and mercy?
A marriage of the spirit?

Whichever you choose, that I am and that I remain until you choose to change it.

We need not tell another soul if that is our agreed upon desired.
When they ask all we need say is love provides, keep love alive. Until the time comes when we declare our love together I will remain yours in the secret place saved for we two, alone.

My fellow mankind I beg of you: Until time ends and we are full keep feeding the better angels of our nature. Keep love in mind and raise your brother up, think better of one another.
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Here’s a good riddle:

Who Am I ?

How I love you!
Words fail to explain.
How I adore you!
Where actions speak.
Wear me like regal garb,
and give me a noble life.
I am the only one who is truly yours.
I belong to you, you decide who am I?

I was with you at the beginning
I am with you in the end
I  see through your eyes
I  hear your voice, you have only one voice
I gave it to you.
I will to love you in the evening
I will to love you in the morning, and I will to love you
in the night. Past, present, and future.
I am even now giving you my pledge to be faithful while remaining enraptured by the pleasure of your company.  Yes, it’s true,
For a moment I closed my eyes, for a moment I slept. Just now, just today, I awoke, and I said:  Today is the day I am with you, and for eternity we remain together. Time is no object, there is no object.

Objects:  lie or lay. I say both!

…And now abides, faith, hope, and love, but the greatest of these is love (That’s Bible folks. ).

It is finished, Choices and opinions remain ever expanding.
May we always choose to abide in love (1 Corinthians 13).

What part of you can not be lost?
Who do you say I am?

(my personal answer is one word. If you would like to know that word, just ask. )

BIG LOVE
lil’ gini

_______________

PS –
Don’t worry my next glimpse is a little more … blue? racey? mmm, yeah, blue is good.
look for:  Your love is like __________
and other silly metaphors for love, lust, and fun.

OH and Happy Valentine’s day everyone. If you observe days like that. BIG LOVE

 

 

An Open Letter

Soundtrack (listening to):

Lisa Lobe – Stay
A. Morrisette – Ironic
4 non-blondes – What’s up?
Criminal
Nelly Furtado –  I’m Like a Bird

The following is an open letter and a personal letter to my loved ones, friends, both past present, and future.

There is so very much I would like to say that this could be a Tolstoy novel. You know, War and Peace?  I will try my best to condense what is currently in my heart.

Every person born into this world is filled with both good and evil, love and hate, right and wrong on the inside all who have reached the age of accountability are aware of this.

Blame never solves anything, oh, it may make us feel better for the moment but ultimately it doesn’t help anything. Forgiveness, and personal responsibility followed by choice, and action do make for change.  I know this, and I am doing my best to put it into practice.

Inside there is everything we need to be complete, yet on the outside, we can only work with what we have at hand and imagine for the better.

That being said, I am truly sorrowful today. I hate to be in and to see you in misery.  I am sorry. My heart and head hurt, because I hurt you, even if it was unintentional. I never want to hurt another. You are precious and I’d give you the world were it mine.

I would like you to understand that It is never my intention to hurt, insult, belittle or take advantage of you. I mean no harm. I do give all, I am open to you and here for you with all that is within me. What I can not do is choose for you.  Choice, even down to every thought we think is ours alone to make. My sky is torn today, my heart aches. I am truly sorry for your pain and anger. I care deeply. If I could give you only and all the goodness and graceful thoughts that exist I would certainly do so. With gladness, I would hold you in safe keeping for eternity.

How? tell me please, how do I show my appreciations for you allowing me to be a part of your life? How can I communicate to you that I love you? I care and will do anything for you, I  give to you all that I am without expecting anything in return if you would only ask (A. ask, S. seek, K. knock).  All you need to do is ask. I am grateful, though I may/can not know how to show it to you. It is up to you to show me how I can do that. All you need to do is ask.

If I complain about, take advantage of, or inconvenience you please forgive me.  I am still human and struggle with all of the same feelings and thoughts that every person alive on this earth does. I am doing the best I can given what I have at hand, whether or not anyone acknowledges it, or thinks otherwise. If it is your desire, I would go dirty, cold and hungry before I use you unjustly.  Believe that you may call on me anytime and with all I have and all I am I will comfort you, I will give all for you. I am dignified. I am humbled by you. I am all that I am and I would give all for you if you ask me to.

Need clarity of intention? Ask
Need money? Ask
Need companionship? Ask
Need wisdom? Ask
Need Truth? Need an ear, arm, shoulder?
Wake me up anytime, day or night and I will sit with you. I will not leave you alone unless; unless that is your desire.

All I have is yours if you will seek me out.  If I don’t have the thing, the wisdom or the answer you are looking for I will help in your search the best way I know how.

It is ALL up to you. Choose as you will.  Choose to be angry? you are allowed to be angry. Go for it. Choose to be disheartened, or wholehearted, choose hate, choose murder if you so desire, go ahead and cut me off, kill me. Although, I pray that you will choose life, and love, mercy and grace, peace and truth, but whatever your choice I will not condemn you and I will not abandon you, for you have had enough of that and you do enough of that for yourself.

I give myself to you. Everything I have is yours all you need to do is ask.

This ONE thing I ask of you. Please,  if you can find it in your heart forgive. Forgive me, forgive yourself, and know that I AM for you. I am not against you. If I could choose friendship, loyalty, laughter, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, understanding, riches, fame goodness, truth and every good thing for you I most certainly would, and do.
But those choices are not mine to make for you, I can not be responsible for your thoughts, feelings, or actions.Only you and I can make that choice.

Every waking moment, until the time we are taken from this earth we choose.

I am aware, I am here. You matter to me and I love you.

BIG LOVE
lil’ gini

PS- the impetus for this post was most disturbing, and painful for me personally, no buts about it, it’s all true.
PSS – I’m still searching for a good proofreader. Want to help?

 

What’s on your mind?

Facebook is always asking . . .
So I decided to answer:

What’s on your mind?

Who me?
What’s on my mind? I’m just gonna share it –
 
My mind is on my mind, a lot. I mean I’m thinking about what I’m thinking about, AND, and if I find that I’m not, then I remind myself to WAKE UP !! and intentionally pay attention , examining, ordering, and choosing my thoughts very carefully. It’s like freaking brain surgery only you’re not sure if you are under the influence or wide awake. It’s like quantum physics type stuff, really freakin’ hard. I can’t even remember how to multiply fractions and I’m trying to attempt to crawl inside my own skull and ReKnew, Everything I Thought I knew??? .
 
(ReKnew is a fantastic blog BTW, if you want to check it out, it has my heart. – http://www.reknew.org ).
 
I have to tell you it is NOT EASY, it is a lot of hard work. I mean, it’s like freaking warfare it’s so difficult. All this thinking … like training for an amazing Gladiator battle. I need my shield, all my armor, my helmet, swift feet and a sharp two-edged sword !! Until I remember that the battle is not mine and can breathe again and search for the flow. I remember to be like water (there’s a post or two coming on that concept 🙂 ). 
 
So here is the way I figure it:
I am mind, I am heart and soul, strength, and mind. I am thought that inspires you. In you breathe, and out your breath goes, it goes on and on. Have you taken any time notice lately?
I am that which makes your fingernails grow. Creator, in creation, I am that which allows the wind to blow where it will, and you cannot tell where it comes or where it goes. I am the very force that makes and keeps your heart beating, your lungs breathing in and out, filling your blood with love like oxygen (hey, I’m a child of the 70/80’s, cut me some slack, will ya !! ) – I am that, life. The rest is up to you. Choose which you will serve, evil or good, life or death.
 
You already know my name, you use it all day long.
 
Resistance is futile for I will and do as I please, it’s all of me, by me, and for me. Resistance is futile for I am as you are and we shall ever be, together as one. I am has sent me, I say STOP! Do not fear for I am with you, Be STILL  and KNOW.   be still and know….
…get quiet,
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Move in a little closer.
What do you hear?

Move up a little higher,
What do you see?
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I promise you the air is much easier to breathe in this place.
God’s grace is sufficient for all who will look within and without, spirit housed in flesh.

 
HEY MAN !!! You asked for it. Remember ???
All my love, ~gini.
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PS-Hey…. is that megalomaniacish?

Don’t worry about it. It’s all good, I AM Enjoying it more all the time.
BIG LOVE,
BIG LIFE,
lil’ gini ❤

Life is A Love Song

It’s up to me and you to make it happen, or is it up to you and me to enjoy as it is happening?


TOTO . . .https://youtu.be/FTQbiNvZqaYIt’s gonna take a lot to take me away from you


There’s nothing that a hundred men or more could ever do


I bless the rains down in Africa

I bless the rains down in Africa

Gonna take some time to do the things we never had
Let’s take some time to do the things we never had!

Let’s take some time to do the things we never had!


LOVE SAYS
You are my Conductor,  
You’re every instrument in the symphony that is me.
I am the dissonance and I am the harmony
I am notes of the melody, soft perfect harmony within.
You will find me in those shining spaces, and moments in between.
Listen very closely and Look within.
I am in you and you are in me, together we are complete.


I Am written on your heart, Love yourself, and your neighbor ! 

Old Testament- it’s written with the promise
“I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people.

New Testament – This promise is full filled in Jesus, and I am in him, you are in him and in me.

“This is the covenant I will make with them after that time, says the Lord. I will put my laws in their hearts, and I will write them on their minds.”


LOOK WITHIN


I Am within you and I Am without, for I Am all in all. Above all and through all and in you all.


My Prayer = Elohim = He that was and is and is to come:
Love is One :  Untie us 🙂 take away my double vision, and make my eye single that my whole body may be full of light.  Unite my dual nature that I may be complete in you.  

Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks.
As within, so without,
As above, So below.
As in heaven so on earth
Salt and Light …and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. 17Do not think that I have come to abolish the Law or the Prophets; I have not come to abolish them, but to fulfill them. Matthew 5 !

– Psalm 110 –

Deep and Wide is This little light of mine 🙂

BIG LOVE lil gini