What’s on your mind?

Facebook is always asking . . .
So I decided to answer:

What’s on your mind?

Who me?
What’s on my mind? I’m just gonna share it –
 
My mind is on my mind, a lot. I mean I’m thinking about what I’m thinking about, AND, and if I find that I’m not, then I remind myself to WAKE UP !! and intentionally pay attention , examining, ordering, and choosing my thoughts very carefully. It’s like freaking brain surgery only you’re not sure if you are under the influence or wide awake. It’s like quantum physics type stuff, really freakin’ hard. I can’t even remember how to multiply fractions and I’m trying to attempt to crawl inside my own skull and ReKnew, Everything I Thought I knew??? .
 
(ReKnew is a fantastic blog BTW, if you want to check it out, it has my heart. – http://www.reknew.org ).
 
I have to tell you it is NOT EASY, it is a lot of hard work. I mean, it’s like freaking warfare it’s so difficult. All this thinking … like training for an amazing Gladiator battle. I need my shield, all my armor, my helmet, swift feet and a sharp two-edged sword !! Until I remember that the battle is not mine and can breathe again and search for the flow. I remember to be like water (there’s a post or two coming on that concept 🙂 ). 
 
So here is the way I figure it:
I am mind, I am heart and soul, strength, and mind. I am thought that inspires you. In you breathe, and out your breath goes, it goes on and on. Have you taken any time notice lately?
I am that which makes your fingernails grow. Creator, in creation, I am that which allows the wind to blow where it will, and you cannot tell where it comes or where it goes. I am the very force that makes and keeps your heart beating, your lungs breathing in and out, filling your blood with love like oxygen (hey, I’m a child of the 70/80’s, cut me some slack, will ya !! ) – I am that, life. The rest is up to you. Choose which you will serve, evil or good, life or death.
 
You already know my name, you use it all day long.
 
Resistance is futile for I will and do as I please, it’s all of me, by me, and for me. Resistance is futile for I am as you are and we shall ever be, together as one. I am has sent me, I say STOP! Do not fear for I am with you, Be STILL  and KNOW.   be still and know….
…get quiet,
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Move in a little closer.
What do you hear?

Move up a little higher,
What do you see?
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I promise you the air is much easier to breathe in this place.
God’s grace is sufficient for all who will look within and without, spirit housed in flesh.

 
HEY MAN !!! You asked for it. Remember ???
All my love, ~gini.
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PS-Hey…. is that megalomaniacish?

Don’t worry about it. It’s all good, I AM Enjoying it more all the time.
BIG LOVE,
BIG LIFE,
lil’ gini ❤

Imagination and the Kingdom of God


Our whole point  depends on our definition of God.
Is there a God?

There are many gods, or rather we make gods out of many things.

I believe there is only one true and living God.   What do I/we know about God?

 Firstly, God is, God is One
*God is Good
* God is Spirit
*Omniscient
*Omnipresent
*Omnipotent*
God is the Author of life and faith* that which is intangible*
God’s Kingdom is Within* – and Without*

Α -Ω from beginning to end GOD IS ALL IN ALL –  Both the Author and the Finisher.

The Book of John 17    The Book of Isaiah Chapter 44 – Hebrews 12: 1-3

Correct?  headscratch

Energy:  Energy is neither created nor can it be destroyed.

” If Energy cannot be created or destroyed and all matter is a form of energy, then all must be a form of God.
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Ask the Van !

I’m not so sure about how to look at this since we are said to be separated from God by sin. If this is true, that we are separated by sin, then in some way, we must be  reconciled and resurrected  back to life, because God can not die. ??  ??   yes?

Consider then if you will, that true life then begins at the end.
That is to say, begin with the crucifixion for resurrection. Jesus is our example, the NT is the story of us, you and me.  When you realize your end (I die daily) you will find your beginning. Therefore, you must die to really live life at it’s fullest.  God knows the end from the beginning and all is complete.

The Big Quantum Equation

God fills the Universe, the air, the earth, the sea, all that is in them, you and me. God is in you and in me and outside of you and outside of me and yet we can not see God with our eyes, no, it is through our eyes that we see God’s creation in all.

Am I looking through my eyes? What do I see? Am I seeing what is, or what I choose to see?

The kingdom of God is within. In the depth of our being, we are one with God for the Father is in Jesus,  Jesus is in us, and we are one with the all in all, and yet we are unique, there is no one like you, no one like me. It’s extremely simple and profound, it blows my mind – YES!!  God is Spirit, intangible and yet everything you look at is a reflection of God even our own reflection. Whenever I see that newborn baby, wrapped in swaddling clothes, I see the most precious being that comes from the greatest mystery and has the breath of life. I am, we are looking at the face of God!

While attempting to feed my intellect, and configure my reality, I recently came across some teachings by a man named: Neville Goddard – He has an extremely interesting take on life, death, salvation, resurrection, spirit, body. If I understand what I am reading,  He taught that the Bible is not literal but figurative stories and the NT is the fulfillment of the OT and that Jesus Christ is the Lord who exists as our own, wonderful,  imagination. Reality through imagination. It is in our imagination that we create our world. That is to say, what we think on, our inner man (self-talk) manifests. You are (and you get) what you dwell on. This holds us fully and completely responsible. This is revelatory and when God reveals Christ within, that is when we are born again we can and will perceive. Here is a link for many of Neville’s Recordings
neville_goddardThey sound really far out, but taking a closer look much of it make sense.

Have you found the newborn child in you?  If you can not answer that then keep looking, never stop looking until know, and you will know beyond all doubt and no one will be able to talk you out of it, nothing shall by any means hurt you again.

We have an external witness and an internal witness,( Hmmmm, two witnesses, interesting), there is something to that for sure. I’ll save that for another day.

That this life which we are conscious of is the valley of the shadow of death and we need not fear when we realize Christ in us, the hope of glory. 

Why is that so hard for us to accept that the Spirit life is true life ?

It is written; God humbled himself, (materialized/manifested in the world), robed in a garment,  that garment is flesh and blood  (Jesus=God personified), a precious beautiful garment that is your body.  God, through Jesus, shows us how He is the plan of salvation. When you realize (
real-ize) this you will be “born again”. The Christ within you will be born, you will die and be resurrected and the ascension will take place. You grow upward from the inside out, leaving behind all the base and evil things, death will never touch you again, we are ever expanding life in Christ, Lord of Lords.  The first Adam is of the earth, earthy, the second Adam is the Lord from heaven, the Lord is a life-giving Spirit.  Your mind is spirit where reality resides.

Note to self: God alone is the true judge.
Be ever so careful to mind your thoughts bring them into subjection.
“For the wages of sin is death (judgment between good and evil), but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord (eternal life).  -Think about what you are thinking about and choose life, choose good, choose love.

Everlasting life is a present-tense possession. The scriptures tell us in Deuteronomy God says: I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse (Good & Evil).

Thankfully, we get to start fresh every day and we can be true to ourselves while we are learning and moving closer to our purpose for being because God’s mercies are new every morning and longsuffering we can trust completely while exploring these big questions of life.

What do you love the most? Let everything be done out of love.
 
You’ve heard it all your life (if you were raised in a “Christian” atmosphere that is), but, are you listening? Do what you love and you’ll love what you do. Find your passion.   Choose nobility, and altruism, imagine, embody, and appropriate your loves. This is what it is to show our faith by works. James letter to the saints states: As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead
(James 2).  

 But seriously friends, what do I know?

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I’m just a chick, and this is MY learning curve.
I’m not even sure I’m making any sense at all.

Let Your Light Shine !
BIG LOVE lil’ gini
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Song for today: Late Lament – The Moody Blues –
“Late Lament”

 

Breathe deep the gathering gloom,
Watch lights fade from every room.
Bedsitter people look back and lament,
Another day’s useless energy spent.
Impassioned lovers wrestle as one,
Lonely man cries for love and has none.
New mother picks up and suckles her son,
Senior citizens wish they were young.
Cold hearted orb that rules the night,
Removes the colours from our sight.
Red is grey and yellow white.
But we decide which is right.
And which is an illusion?

 

Riddle Me This . . .

I Am Complete In Him  

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h,  if people really knew what that means. I Am complete in Him. If people realized and awakened, had a revelation of what that means,  there would never be another death or war, another struggle for power, no more sorrow, or pain or tears. Our lights would shine so bright we would need no sun.

I believe that one day, all mankind will realize – I Am Complete in Him who is the head of all  principalities and power.

Heck Bullwinkle !

I barely have a glimpse and I’m so blown away I can’t articulate it, IMAGINE !
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What would you say is the most important word  in that last sentence?  

I Am?
No, technically that is a Name and it is two words.

How about I?  is it I?
No, that’s right up there at the top but for the purpose of this blog, not the answer I was looking for. Please,  read it again  and dive a little deeper.

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I will give you a hint . . . . it’s invisible, 
Yes! 

Nah, don’t worry about it just contemplate.

GOD IS ONE

BIG LOVE lil‘ gini 

Excuse me, what?

The heat is nearly unbearable today, but the wind is blowing just fine, and I’ve actually got some energy flowing so… what to do, what to do?  Let’s go sailing?

Okay, I’ve pulled up anchor, hoisted up the mainsail and on we go, one breath at a time.  {Taps fingers… }, one breath at a time. . . . Alright . . . {continues tapping fingers while waiting}.    What happened to the wind?

So, this isn’t as easy as I thought it might be?? huh, what?  Aaaaah!

It is  eleven days until I fly out to Seattle to start fresh. I feel happy, and sad all at the same time. I feel  a little overwhelmed. Last week, I was ready and raring to go. I’m still excited to go, but I’m doubting the ready part.  It hit me this morning that I really am going to do this, I mean it really is real.    Really?. . .   Really!

I was going to see my sister for a bit first, but that fell through. I just couldn’t find a way justify spending the extra money. I am currently living on SSDI and the budget it is really tight. I mean like first moved out of your parent’s house working a minimum wage job got two roommates out of work tight. I only say this because, ahem, I forgot to remind myself : “I have a lavish, dependable, steady income consistent with integrity and mutual benefit.”

Even with a very generous gift from some folks I still couldn’t find a way to justify the extra trip. So, I’m setting some of that at aside and plan to go in November  for the Thanksgiving holiday. Airline tickets round trip from SEA to PHX are less expensive than a multi-city trip from the Northeast, or even one way stops in between with several different airlines.  Yes, I could take a bus or train, but a train is, even more, money blah, blah, blah. I choose to fly.

Anyway, I suppose I should start with my back story.
The question is how far back do I want to go, and how much of it should I share?

I guess 2005 is the year everything shattered.  Yes, that was a shattering year, as well as the following five years till about 2010.  Those years were so full of tragedies and triumphs that I still don’t know where to begin. My memory is so foggy. I may even have to do research to bring back some of what happened.
In quick synopsis:
My eldest graduated high school and moved out. Thanks be to God He has always been independent yet, always a love bug, I am very proud of both my children. They are strong individuals. They are my heroes. My youngest had a psychotic break with reality and as a result, there were accusations, an unprecedented trial, a year on house arrest a lot of hospital visits and I’m pretty sure we are all still in therapy. My husband of 21-years became ill with an inoperable tumor and ended up on medical leave, not long afterward I lost my marriage, went bankrupt, lost my house, my dignity, my job (got laid off – being laid off is like being punished for doing nothing wrong.), I got divorced, I left my church, and to top it off I ended up having triple bypass surgery on my x-husband’s birthday. That was all between ’05 and ’07. Today, I’m stronger than ever on the inside.

Okay, sorry folks, I just realized, I’m not ready to share all that yet. I have no idea where to begin.  In fact, I may have to do that under a pseudonym, and after I take some writing courses in the PNW.

It’s been over ten years and I’ve “recovered”,  whatever that means.  I realize that some of my greatest challenges are ahead.  That is I think I’m finally ready to move on and begin again. I’m ready for the second half. I want to make the very best of it.  What the future holds I have no clue. However, I know that through the Spirit of the living God within me, I can, and I will continue to grow and overcome! I know I need to be on my own, and that I would like to get off living solely on SSDI as it keeps me well below the poverty level.

Some glorious experiences are ahead of me, and I think that is a big enough challenge for now.I’m at a really strange place in my life, researching  religions and questioning a lot of things. I need a whole lot more than just the usual pat answers.

Here is a message from a Church for people who are not into “Church”
Click to go here: The Meeting House  or for even more info, here:   Official Youtube Channel – The Meeting House  They meet in a movie theater, and other rented spaces on Sunday and then on another day of the week  in smaller groups in their homes. I am in love with the idea and will be searching for a place like this when I get to Seattle, or perhaps I shall just being with Sun Gazing and meditation on  Holy Writ.
PEACE & GRACE to you,
BIG LOVE  ~lil gini